Monday, March 28, 2011
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Have you ever been so right that your wrong?
Taking up a “just” cause because you think you are so right and everyone else around you in so wrong. I am not talking about the cause of Christ here either people. I am talking about the need to win an argument. Or the need to prove to the person who has wronged you HOW wrong they actually were. Why!? I mean if they won’t hear you or don’t see it, why? Just let it go! There is biblical protocol to follow in situations like that, you go to someone with an offense, but after a while you NEED to LET IT GO!
I have watched a good friend of mine fall into that trap and he has since lost his job because of it. He started out with such good intentions and heart. But he was so afraid someone was going to run him over that he clung to what he thought was right so fiercely that it drove people away. When all along people respected him and thought of his work very highly.
A few weeks ago I was struck with the realization that I to have struggled with that same flaw. My daughter Amira and I have entered that to fun phase of mother daughter relationship where we argue. No missing the point that she is 8 and that there are fundamental issues that we are teaching her, I saw this flaw in me because I was noticing it in her. AND IT SCARED THE HOOVIES OUTTA ME!!!! I can be so right that I am wrong.........DING DING DING!! WHAT!? Me? NO WAY JOSE’. I am to humble for that sort of pride. Then it hit me with a mallet in the back of my head....maybe that is why bitterness has always been a struggle with me!!! Maybe that is why I struggle with feeling stressed out and burdened and burnt out.
THEN I REALIZED WITH SUCH CLARITY THAT THE ONLY TORCH I AM TO CARRY IS THE TORCH OF JESUS CHRIST!!!!!!! If an issue arises that doesn’t have anything to do with Jesus Christ and his dying on the cross for the souls of many I AM NOT TO PICK IT UP!!! Something like this take discernment and focus on Christ because we can get so easily pulled in so many different directions. Don’t take me wrong, in parenting you have to pick your battles and you have to win them, BUT do so with grace and humility! Not with the driving need to prove how right you are.
I don’t know if that makes any sense to anyone else but me, but I feel free!!!!!!
JESUS IS THE AUTHOR AND THE FINISHER OF OUR FAITH AND IN HIM WE HAVE THE VICTORY!!!
Friday, March 25, 2011
I watched portions of the movie SOCIAL NETWORK yesterday. Seen it? SUPER SAD!!! Here is this kid (I am not even going to attempt to spell his name) who is the youngest BILLIONAIRE in the world, the dude INVENTED Facebook and in the end.......if the movie is to be believed.......he is a sad lonely person with no one to talk to, but all the money in the world to spend. Kind of ironic isn’t it? The movie portrays the person who created the greatest social network ever as being a sad and lonely person.
Got me thinking....
1. HOW WOULD I SPEND $25,000,000,000??? Luis said he would tithe first. What is 10% of that? Take of two zeros and you got yourself a happy orphanage in africa....then we would take 100 million of that and buy a house in all of our favorite countries. I would buy the GAP and be outfitted with groovy clothes for life along with my entire family and the orphanage! Probably thrown in a lypo-suction for the fun of it. ....you get my point, the list is endless...
2. If the movie is to be believed......the guy spent a lot of time and energy building this empire and lost his friends in the process. Is ambition worth it? What is my goal in life? Do I run people over in the process? Am I hurting anyone to meet my goals? Even if my goals are valuable and good, I have to be careful not to forget the people closest to me. My family, my kids....GOD GRANT ME THE EYES TO SEE THEM ALWAYS!! Let me take that a step further, there are people in my life, the grocery store clerk, the security guard in the parking lot, the kids on the street, they all deserve consideration, respect and the Love of Jesus! Let me take it even further than that! HOW OFTEN TO I FORGET JESUS IN MY QUEST TO SERVE HIM AND BRING GLORY TO HIS NAME!? “To busy to pray”....isn’t that to true to often?
Lord, help me to see those around me as you see them! To often I am so consumed with my day and the fiery trial of the moment. Forgive me for being selfish!! Thank you for your grace and your love!!!!! I don’t want to get to the end of my life and it is all worthless because I forgot you in all the things I was trying to do for You!
Thursday, March 24, 2011
PHEW....the kids are off to school, husband is out the door to a street outreach, and I have a few minutes to myself before I begin the all important battle of de-crapping the kids bedroom. UGH....You know it is time to de-crap when you can’t find school sneakers a measly 2 hours after taking them off.
So, what has Myranda been “musing” about lately? Psalm 91...folks, the battles are fierce, the struggle is exhausting and to often we take it upon ourselves what the Lord has never intended for us to. (Or maybe it is just me and my need to be in control) Whether being a missionary in Lusaka, Zambia or a clerk in a grocery store, or a nursery worker in the 10 am Sunday service the battle for our souls and our testimony is F-I-E-R-C-E. I have am beginning to come into a place of freedom in my life to understand that it isn’t my battle! I don’t have to fix it for everyone, I don’t have to prove how right I am (cause doesn’t that just make me more wrong in the end?). All Jesus expects of me is to be myself and to trust and obey.....FEEL A SONG COMING ON!? For theres no other way....to be HAPPY in Jesus...than to trust and obey......You guys, that is HUGE with a capital HU for me! I have fought and fought and fought the Lord on this one.
PREACH IT GIRL!!! AMEN SISTA!!!
The conclusion I have come to is this.....God doesn't NEED me...he CHOOSES to use me....He didn't bring my family to Africa because we have so much to offer......He brought me here to deal with me!!!!! THAT IS A FACT FOLKS.....take it to the bank....deposit it and earn interest!
Ok, so please allow me to include some verses that I have been reading on this very same topic.......these are just some verses that I was doing a personal study on....
He who dwells in the secret place(protection, shelter) of the Most Hight shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. (or dwell habitually)
For in the time of trouble He shall hide me in His pavilion. In the secret place of his tabernacle, He shall hide me; He shall set me high upon a rock.
You shall hide them in the secret place of your presence from the plots of man, You shall keep them secretly in a pavilion.
You are my hiding place, you shall preserve me from trouble. You shall surround me with songs of deliverance.
Keep me as the apple of Your eye, hide me under the shadow of your wings.
For you have been a strength to the poor. a strength to the needy in his distress, a refuge from the storm, a shade from the heat, for the blast of the terrible ones is a storm against the wall!
A man will be as a hiding place from the wind. and a cover from the tempest, as rivers of water in a dry place, as the shadow of a great rock in a weary land
Job 5:15, 21
But, He saves the needy from the sword, from the mouth of the mighty and from their hand! You shall be hidden from the scourge of the tongue, and you shall not be afraid of destruction when it comes.
Psalm 9:9, 10
The Lord will also be a refuge for the oppressed, a refuge in times of trouble. And those who know Your name will put their trust in You, for You Lord have NOT forsaken those who seek You!
I will sing to the Lord, For he has triumphed gloriously, the horse and the rider he has thrown into the sea!
And there will be a tabernacle for shade in the daytime from the heat, for a place of refuge, and for a shelter from storm and rain!
God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble! There fore we will not fear even though the earth be removed, and though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea, though its waters roar and be troubled, though the mountains shake with its swelling.
I will say of the Lord, ‘He is my refuge and my fortress. My God in Him I will trust!
I cried out to You, O lord, I said “You are my refuge, my portion in the land of the living.”
Surely He shall deliver you from the snare of the fowler and from the perilous pestilence.
Our soul has escaped as a bird from the snare of the fowlers, the snare is broken and we have escaped! Our help is in the name of the Lord, who made heaven and earth!
Deliver yourself like a gazelle from the hand of the hunter, and like a bird from the hand of the fowler.
He shall cover you with His feathers, and under His wings you shall take refuge. His truth shall be your shield and buckler!
Keep me as the apple of Your eye Hide me under the shadow of Your wings!
You shall not be afraid of the terror by night, nor of the arrow that flies by day
He shall deliver you in six troubles, yes in seven no evil shall touch you.
He will not be afraid of evil tidings, His heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord. His heart is established He will NOT be afraid until he sees his desire upon his enemies.
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, nor shall the flame scorch you!
*Psalm 34:4, 19
I sought the Lord, and he heard me! And delivered me from ALL my fears! Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all!
1 Corinthians 10:13
No temptation has overtaken you except such as in common to man but God is faithful who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make a way of escape, that you may be able to bear it!
For a righteous man may fall seven times and rise again, but the wicked shall fall by calamity!
But whoever listens to me will dwell safely, and will be secure without fear of evil.
You have caused men to ride over our heads; we went through fire and through water, but you brought us out to rich fulfillment.
Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them! For the Lord your God, he is the one who goes with you! He WILL NOT LEAVE YOU NOR FORSAKE YOU!!
For I am with you, says the Lord. to save you! Though I make a full end of all nations where I have scattered you, yet I will not make a complete end of you. But I will correct you in justice, and will not you go altogether unpunished.
LOOK! He answered, I see four men loose, walking in the midst of the fire, and they are not hurt, and the form of the fourth is like the Son of God!!!
JESUS IS THE FOURTH MAN IN THE FIRE!!!! HALLELUJAH!!!!
BE BLESSED EVERYONE!!! YOU ALL ROCK!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Ok, so some of you have asked me if I would start a blog.....ME!? A blog!? Who would read it...then I got to thinking.....I feel it my duty to give the most unromantic and realistic version of missionary life possible. Lets face it folks, missionary life ain't like a 150 page biography we read on the life of George Muller. You only get the juicy bits, you don't get the everyday stuff. So, here goes.....Musings of a Missionary Mama! Here you will get it raw, real and with loads of Jesus.