I entered into the Christmas season bruised, worn and weary. To be perfectly honest with you guys I just wasn't feeling it this year. (anyone else able to relate?)
I just simply didn't have the energy for it. In years past we make a family day out of decorating the tree....this year I put the stuff out and let the kids go to town. (I was dealing with a bad back, could hardly stand up with out crying and just was not in the mood)
November and December are crazy busy for us typically......two of my kids and my husbands have their birthdays in December.....ministry is busy .....plus all we have been dealing with internally and physically.......well, Im sure you get the picture.....Where was the energy to make eggnog from scratch in 95 degree weather while trying to muster up that "christmas smell" wearing a tank top and shorts listening to Michael Buble' sing about White Christmas going to come from?
Christmas eve dawned rainy and muggy. We had plans to go to a friends house and I made my traditional pot of chili. (I grew up eating chili on Christmas eve). So I made a nice meal and we got dressed and went over to our friends house. It was a nice time of fellowship and we all enjoyed the company. (My chili was a hit!) After we ate we all gathered in the living room to sing some Christmas carols. And thats when my Christmas miracle hit!
As we sat in the living room we were able to watch the most glorious lighting storm roll in....it was majestic! It was like it was scripted....as the storm rolled in we were singing the following lyrics.......
Yea, Lord, we greet Thee, born this happy morning;
Jesus, to Thee be all glory giv'n!
Word of the Father, now in flesh appearing!
It was as if the angels were dancing in remembering the glory and majesty of the most beautifully significant moment in history. Jesus Christ, Lord of heaven and earth was born as a small and helpless baby to be able to identify with all things that make us weak and frail.....he set an example of HOW to live in victory and THEN PURCHASED our freedom from sin and death on the cross of calvary! Everything he did, everything he said, everything that motivated him was FOR US to have the opportunity to walk with Him and be free from our sin.
In that moment of awestruck wonder at the beauty of Jesus and his amazing sacrifice he made FOR ME AND YOU I felt his gentle voice tug at my bruised and exhausted heart.....Myranda, I have been with you every step of the way....when you have felt lonely and desperate, when you have felt desperate and hopeless, exhausted and weary, I have held your hand and covered you through it all! And I am here now! It is going to be ok!
I sat there with silent tears of gratitude as I felt the loving and gracious hand of Jesus sooth me and gently hold me. (I am crying as I write this)
That the God of heaven and earth would CHOOSE to humble himself and make himself NOTHING, to be born in the lowiliest and basest of ways.....to DIE A HORRIBLE AND TERRIBLE DEATH SO THAT I CAN LIVE......and for no other reason other than the fact that he loves me......WOW! He expects NOTHING but my love and my faith in return!
In the end it turned out to be one of the more beautiful Christmases I have celebrated because I was reminded of WHY.....truly WHY!
Jesus Christ LOVES YOU and LONGS for you! Why are you running? Aren't you tired of running?
Jesus said this.....